Scattered Me

This state and that stage,

I've read the final page

Im writing things that dont make sense to me anymore

Bad shots and tied in knots and parts of me in flaccid shock

They look at me like i know the answers

Wheres the bar?

I'm not yer star 

And insincere apologies

Im not a wreck I just feel sick

And all these shows has finally scattered me

I wake up and say where are we today

Does anyone remember where we were yesterday

This dream and some girls screams

And why does it always have to be me

Cant you make your own illusions 

Sick and tired of your intrusions

All these lies has surely scattered me

Broken glass, i dont recall

Punching holes in all these walls

And feinting transparent sincerity 

I'm just a shell, leave me hollow

Hold me to your ear and hear the sea

Rolling on the bottom

But dont put me in your bottle

Just a shell, this sea has scattered me

Black and blue, im desuetude of truth

The spiders sucked me dry, i need a drink

Tripping over guardrails, 

Vacuum fills my sails

Jotting down in coherent tiddlywinks

I'm not yer star, I am, you aren't

My salt has been diluted by yer seas

All this nothing's finally scattered me