Didn’t know

I didn’t know that that solid

Fortress of me could fall.

I never imagined that the walls

That I built could be brought

Down by something so small.

I can’t even begin to see where

The chinks that built up over time

And the damage was unseen

Till the forces were so overrun

On the line.

I didn’t realize what a

Compromise giving of myself

Would entail.

In foresight I can’t find in

Myself any cause to regret

The loss of the forces that failed.

I didn’t know what I know now

But even if I did, I’m a better

Man to take the defeat.

The loss of my nothingness

Is replaced by a loneliness

And the agony is O so sweet.

Chris.