That's Me

I've been trippin I've been slippin. I've been doing everything

everybody a;ways dreamed that they would do/

On a wild roller coaster since the day that I left home

and by the miraculous grace of God i've made it through.

When the forces of the enemy inclose my soul with hopeless doom

and chopping jaws to chew my bones

I fight with all my might and have the scars to say Im right

So only Jesus mercy ever saw me safely home.

When everybody begs to listen to the stories of the way I've

raged the face of this crazy world.

I tell them that if I brag its on the Lord but with a smile

I gotta say that I love every minute of the battles

And I fight for all Im worth.

I've been flaming. I've been flying, I've been fighting while

Im crying in the pouring rain and blowing blizzards

of the north.

God has let me crash on mountains, wreak on highways, bounce

down ditches, flipped in the woods, so on and on and so forth.

Still each new sunrise so blows my mind and so surprised

To wake up in some country and had forgotten I was there.

I may not know where I am half the time

and the other half Im twice as sure that I dont care.

I've been sailing, I've been failing, I've been everywhere on my

way to being nothing at all over and over again.

I dont care if Im not here and I dont mind if everybody

minds their own business and leaves me right the hell alone

in the wind.

And it always hurts later when the bullet hits the bone.

But nothing hurts quite like a betrayal of a friend.

I've put out my thumb and i've put down my foot

I've picked up a clue or two on my way to nowhere

the long way around.

If the phone doesn't ring then it may just be me and my

thing. Loosing my way on this care free highway Ive found.

If Im not making sense Its just my way of saying that you

probably wont get my point anyway.

But if you see what I mean on the lines in between

Then thank God someone gets what the hell Im trying

my least not to say.

And all these (I's) and (me's) which may seem that Im full

of myself and that I see the world revolving around me

Im just talking to myself or do I mean myself and nobody

else cause I never take myself that seriously.

All this gobleldegoor Im like a fluke or Suese

and Im confusing the pubic wherever I roam

Searching one horse towns for the ultimate showdown

all by myself but never quite alone.

I've been thrown. I've been blown, I've been licked and kicked

by what for damn sure is the best of them.

Seen more then my share, done more than most dare

standing out like a sore thumb from the rest of them.

Too many times told its the end of the line and my

mother quit taking these calls in the night

When the doctor would say

'Im sorry to tell you mam, but your sons gonna die"

she says 'You cant kill him.  I've had this call many times

Tell him I love him and Good day." 

I've been sad but true, I've been black and blue

Taken by land and by sea.

Been up many nights just scribbling lines that when I

found them later I found hard to believe were by me.

Im still on my rant, Cant be told that I cant

Think I took a wrong turn on the highway to hell

Will you jump out and charge and taste the world at large

or just like the maulers lie safe in your shell?

To most I seen strange cause I've ridden the range and

Im from the way back and rough

Slipping and sliding, peeping and hiding and Im not stopping

until I've had enough.

So say a quick prayer for me Im not so much mystery as

always breaking all of the rules that I can.

You better look fast cause this surely cant last.

And I sure as hell must be a flash in the pan.

Im busy getting dizzy so dont have a hissy Im doing what

What all of you wish you could do.

I am just what I am so why should I give a damn

And I haven't got time to feel sorry for you.

Im sorry.

But I dont recommend you try it my friend because

My very next fight may end in a fireball while you

live safely and vicariously

I do as I wish by fife or by fist and someone's gotta

answer the call

And thats me.

Chris 

12.7.12 TX

P.S. I can fuck me up all by myself

I dont need any help.....

but world....thanks for trying